A Pen's Heart

Word Count: (normally I'd say a 4 mins read but this time, you tell me😁 Happy reading, you'll love it) Title:Blank Grief (P.S: Violent content) Theme song: Reset by Tiger JK feat Jinsil Episode 1: Cruelty In Pain.  "The feeling of nothingness is the worst type of pain"---- Just Ella "I understand what you're going through.. I can imagine how you feel" people tend to misuse these words and I hate it!! No! You don't understand! And no! You can't imagine how I feel. Not even in your worse nightmare! My mother watched her twelve year old daughter being raped in front of her and her nineteen year old daughter screaming from the room because she was being forced upon. She was unable to do anything, she couldn't even think! Her husband was next to her bleeding to death and you say you understand????  What?? So, because you've been raped before, you have an idea of how I feel? No you don't! Because you weren't there! You didn't g...

Word Count: A 4 mins read😍 Theme Music: Savage Love by Jason Derulo Bad luck comes in three's, grief has five stages, one is a maybe, two is a coincidence and three is a pattern. These numbers and saying do not relate, or do they? I guess we'll never know because this story will never be known, or will it? No one knows. Some things are better hidden if not secrets wouldn't not exist. So, here I am, about to tell you a secret which will not be one, as you'll now know, for this secret is yet to having an ending. Matters of the heart should always be a secret because everyone perception is different. It was never meant to  happen this way, it was just a trivial game which was meant to be harmless but the price is too high to pay. The reward was great but the  punishment was greater. I didn't mean for it to happen, what happens now?  Do we separate forever or come back together??  What about the hearts that have fallen for us?  Do we become heartbreakers?...

Word Count: A 4 mins read😍                Earlier today I made a decision, more like a long awaited decision. It's been two months since I've bought this ring and I have been waiting for the perfect time to propose to her, but hey, it's either we're too busy or I'm too nervous. Nevertheless, tonight, I will. Standing in floral shop, I remember my smile as she rushed out of the room in the morning, she didn't want to look at my face, she couldn't hide her smile and nervousness, I noticed. I didn't tell her but I caught a glimpse of what she was hiding behind  when I suddenly entered the bathroom, or when she was putting on her makeup at her vanity table and when she carefully, swiftly put it in her blue handbag.  I smiled as she hurriedly left the room. It was a pregnancy test. I was so happy when I saw it, though I couldn't see what the result was but I just felt joy in my heart. She must feel so confused right now, filled with...

Word Count: A 4 mins read🤩 "If I mess up once, try not to resent me. Everyone has their days.Remember the days that we went through a lot together..If you say those days don't matter, never forget the days I made you smile and if you really think about it and it still doesn't matter to you, I don't know what is.. perhaps. We never mattered."----- Just Ella Pictorial Moments "If you have the time please, would you like to take a picture with me sometime??"  It doesn't have to be a date, we don't have to spend too long with each other, I won't take much of your time with talks , it won't be a second or a minute or an hour, it will just be one picture.. of course, if you think the first one isn't good enough, we can always take another but for once, just one picture, that's all I want... I know it seems weird, a really bizarre  question to ask but please, when next we see, if I forget, please remind me because this really m...

                          Word Count: 2010 A pen on a blank paper writes: "Ready or Not? To have and to hold, in richness and in poor, in sickness and in health, till death do us part" blah blah blah. You may now kiss the bride and boom it's happily ever after. Yeah right.. oh well.. everyone is different you can never tell who gets the happy ending and who doesn't. All about choices and luck. Choices? Hmm... Here I was, sitting on my bed about to make the biggest choice of my life at the moment, I'm 19 years old in college, living the perfect average life and has the most thoughtful,caring boyfriend any girl  could ever wish for. He is the-perfect-guy to me and that's why it didn't take me so much doubt to make the decision I have made. We've been dating for a year and two months now and we've managed to keep our celibacy until now, it had never gone past making out and kisses for some reaso...